Angels About

I got a e-mail from Ken today with news of angel, Jameson and Jacob's  mother. she has had another stroke and is unable to talk or walk and hospice has come in 24/7 now and caring for her. Ken is lost I'm sure. He has been there every minute since she became ill enough, she couldn't take care of normal daily living tasks. It is so sad.  I know the boys think about it and have many feelings they don't share. jimmy has encouraged them to be tested but that is hard to do. Jameson got so many genetic devils from his parents. jacob and he are so different. It is hard to say if either of them are plagued with hunningtons disease but time will tell. they have made some progress with med to help but no cure yet. they can actually pick the sperm or egg that does not have the gene for it so there is hope of normal kids for them. there is also hope for a cure for them or at least med that can allow them to have a longer better life. my heart is heavy with stress over them, my brother, my mother, my girls, kaye and pete, finances, jobs, routines, bills, disagreements. so many things are so painful. emotionally and physically. sometimes it seems it is just not worth it all. mom had what I think was a panic attack. no need to explain. no matter what it is she always sees the worse possible senario. I guess that comes from growing up with a constant fight between her folks.If voices are raised, she becomes tense immediately. I would love to take her back to corbin and live in mama and papas house but her brothers and sisters made sure she didn't get it. she was spoiled little wandy and they all resented it.she was the only one of them who didn't have a paid for house and she was(and me)the one who took care of them every time they needed her. why are people so mean.  oh well enough whining for tonight I guess. just tired of everything right now.better say double prayers