the move

well I don't know how it will be halfway living with my daughter. I am hurt at her right now and feel deserted. she left on a "free" vacation no sooner than we got them shoved into the house. I don't know all the reasons she was kicked out of the one she had but they do have a hard time keeping things clean and nice. the boys will do whatever I ask them and I hope they do well here. it is not in anyway ready for a family of that size but I have no choice in it right now. she had like an 800$ medicine bill and so much stress. I understand the vacation to some extint but it was an awful time for her to leave and she went to ocean city NJ right where the hurricanes are spinning and flooding and I know I am paranoid but I don't like tempting fate. we got the water heater hooked up but the electricity don't work so now another hurdle. I have spoke to the bank and have so much crap going on I can't keep it in my head. I think the time will be more temporary than they all would like but I can't live in a mess and they will soon get tired of me telling them what to do. she had no money and no way to go anywhere but she could have waited a few more weeks to do this. I think she wanted to get her stuff moved before her "vacation". her landlord came there and threatened the kids while she was at work and called and texted and her rent was one day late at the time. she needed to get out. now the lady in her drunkeness will have nothing good to say about them I'm sure. I am having a hard time just getting up and breathing right now. my ear is infected and I feel so down and done.mother tries to keep me from extra work and usually winds up making it worse. like today she knew I had an appointment with the doc and my ears are giving me fits. she started in the kitchen and before she was worn out, cooked fried chicken,chicken and noodles,veg soup,greenbeans,corn on the cob,a peach upsidedown cake. there were ten pots and bowls all over the kitchen and I tried to get some of it done before I left. Jamey has a job now with home depot.the boys don't watch as close as I'd like them to and if someone is in the house she goes to cooking and it is never enough. she just keeps adding something else but ai have started letting her clean up some of the mess and then I finish it.I don't think she does any of it on purpose but it is very hard to deal with daily living in this house anymore and like the soup. all I said was mom try to keep it a little smaller we don't need 2 gallons. but the pot was full to the top and we took some to kaye. the whole night she told me at least 25 times how good she liked the soup and how kaye loved the soup and ate 2 bowls.I don't know if she forgot she already told me or if she wanted to excuse herself to me for making it or prove to me it was a good thing but it drives me nuts. I don't mind her cooking so much as she thinks, but when she cooks all day for other people and I have a mess to clean up, and she don't even eat it. she was determined to make the corn on the cob before joey left cause "she wanted it" we wound up waiting til it was done to take him home.oh well you can't change her now and I wish she were happier but I do the best I can and she is a handful sometimes. oh well time to quit whining and thank the lord for the blessings and get on with my night. yeah can't sleep.I try to think of those more opressed when I feel down. there are so many without just needs being met. we are so fortunate in so many ways. god have mercy on us and keep us in your care.